Gah!!

Dammit.

I got a C on my Public Speaking midterm. Grrr.... I reviewed the material, I took the quizzes online... and still got a C. What is it with me and that class?!?! I shouldn't complain because I still have an A, but I seem to do really well or really not so well.

Bollocks.

On to speech three...

Is it over yet?

I'm so over 2010.

Between family drama, a car accident and the midterm for Intro to New Testament, my brain is fried. No kidding. Fried. And I'm getting sick. And I have my first half mary creeping up on my ass that I'm totally unprepared for. And I want to race more, but don't have the money. And how many other things do I want/need to do but don't have the money?

Some days I don't want to do school anymore. Not because it's hard. Because it's time consuming. I'm struggling with "am I doing the right thing". Should I just stay home and be a housewife? Or drum up business and actually work? I'm conflicted. Recent events are weighing me down and I'm starting to feel stuck.

Blargh

I want my brain back. I can't seem to get a grasp on it and keep it. I seem to only be able to use it for short bursts of time before my thoughts drift off into "what's next?".

I have a psych test I've not studies for. Completely not like me. I always study for psych. I considered not even showing up for this test and just letting whatever I get on my final stand in for today's test. But that's not who I am. I'll try to study between classes. And probably in NT class (I don't dig the bible stories anyway).

This sucks.

A smile

I passed a girl in the hallway Tuesday. She was sitting on the floor, head bent doing some sort of reading/writing thing with a book and a notebook in her lap. She picked up her phone and looked at it's little screen when I was about 4 steps from her. A smile suddenly erupted across her face and an attractive girl was suddenly made irresistible. I couldn't help but smile myself as I continued walking by.